6/20/20

9:03am

#51

Think about all the books you’ve read. And all the Youtube videos you’ve watched. What did you learn from those books? What did you learn from those youtube videos? Probably absolutely nothing. I spend so much dang time on Youtube watching mediocre content. When I could be spending my time reading books that people have put far more hours getting right. One could argue that books are more entertaining. So start taking care of yourself. I’m going to take care of you. Pick up a book. Close that tab.

Kiubon

6/19/20

9:33am

#50

Wedding season is coming up and I’m spending so many hours looking at gear I can’t afford. Is it even worth it? If El Mariachi can win best film at Sundance, and have the smallest budget ever, then what the heck am I doing? I don’t need all this fancy gear, right? But I want it. It’s gonna help the business! At least that’s what I tell myself. How can I be grateful for what I have? How can I recognize that what I have is enough? Especially since I’ve done one wedding previously with the gear. Gosh the draw of gear. Is it even necessary? If it is, then I better put the work in to get returns.

Kiubon

6/18/20

9:27am

#49

It’s important to keep a routine. Many world class performers have a routine according to Tim Ferriss. That way you can get more done. Drip by drip. No need for a thunderstorm. Look for ways to eliminate wasted time for the routine.

Kiubon

6/17/20

8:58am

#48

I’m going to have to train a friend who wants to work with my company. But they know very little. I don’t know why I jumped at this opportunity. But it’ll be good. Why do we test on mentees or train people? Do we get anything from it? We will see I guess. There must be good that comes from it because people do it all the time. There is so much good! They trainee get’s so much insight. Here’s to business growth.

Kiubon

6/16/20

10:40am

#47

Gary Vaynerchuck want’s to buy the New York Jets, but the day he buys the New York Jets will be the worst day of his life. He loves the process so much of trying to buy the Jets, that once he gets the thing he’s wanted since he was a small child, he will be empty – not full.

So if you’re in the dip, or at the start line, or close to the end, look around you. Things are so exciting! You just had the third fight with your boyfriend, but fret not. The possibilities of what your future will look like with him is so exciting! Perhaps even closer, even deeper, more vulnerable, more real with each other. Or maybe you break up, and you have to start again. You’re single again. How exciting! There is possibility everywhere. So let yourself have one more groan and then look at the excitement all around.

Kiubon

6/15/20

10:05am

#46

I remember watching Randy Pauch’s last lecture a long time ago as a kid. Maybe I was a freshman in high school? The only two things I remember are, when he said don’t feel sorry for him because he’s actually strong, and then he proceeds to do clapping pushups. And also all the talk of head fake, cause the lecture was for his kids. I don’t remember anything else. Yesterday, I watched the 10 minute Opera version. It’s fascinating to see how life is different. I’m sure back then, I didn’t blink twice about the quality of it, but now watching the video, the first thing I notice is how bad the video quality is. I wanted to see how much my brain had developed. Because I remember watching the last lecture the first time and barely understanding a thing. Now things are different. I’m a bit smarter, wiser, and more mature. How will I continue to grow? What new things will be unearthed as I continue to grow? So much and more.

Kiubon

6/14/20

9:07am

#45

Stories shape who we are, they provide narratives for businesses, life lessons, and motivations. They shape movies, books, and music. They are so important. Yesterday I told a short story about my calves, and it did so well. Because I know how to tell a good story. Stories are what we are all secretly wishing for at a dinner party and even at a regular dorm party. We live for moments we can translate into stories. Stories are all around us. Stories make someone cool or not. So tell your story. But do it well. Because nobody could care less about your shitty story.

Kiubon

6/13/20

8:56am

#44

After having not been to the gym in a long time, I did legs, and know I can barely walk. I never knew how important calves are. This is the most sore I’ve ever felt my calves. It’s super annoying for sure. I can barely walk. But this pain is so necessary. It reminds me that I am doing work. I am getting stronger. After the soreness, my legs will be stronger. It’s necessary pain. I have to go through it in order to get stronger. The same with starting a business or bumps in a relationship. You have to go through them to get stronger. Even if you can’t walk for a while.

Kiubon

6/12/20

10:18am

#43

I was hanging out with some of my friends yesterday, when other people started to show up. I had to then leave, I said goodbye to everyone. And nice to meet you to those that I met. One guy in particular, I didn’t get to shake his hand, and he said “I didn’t meet you but bye” snarky cheeky comment. I said “hi my name is Caius. Nice to meet you.” Then I left. I also introduced myself to a guy named Chase. He did not seem all for meeting me. I have no idea why.

It is respectful to go up to people you don’t know, shake their hand and introduce yourself. That is what I did with the people that I hadn’t met there, with the exception of snarky comment guy. I don’t know what his deal was. Maybe cause I didn’t shake his hand? I didn’t get the chance to because I was playing spikeball. But I easily could’ve during one instance I guess.

So introduce yourself to people. Start off on a good foot.

Kiubon

6/11/20

9:13am

#42

Viktor Frankl’s Man’s Search For Meaning was a good book. But it was also so smart. I am barley understanding all of it. So there is much to learn with the book. He talked a lot about positivity and its benefits.

Is there a time when positivity is not appreciated? When you’re hiking up a mountain and you’ve got 5 more miles to go? When someone just passed away and you’re by their side? Not sure if being positive will help in that situation. Of course have common sense with it. But I feel that positivity is generally good and appreciated and helpful. There’s empirical studies on this too.

So how can I be positive and see the light in things even though they are sucky? And my sucky is nothing compared to other people’s suckiness. This is not to discourage me but to show me that I can do it because other’s have done harder.

Kiubon

6/9/20

9:54am

#41

How to be present.

-Listen to every single word that comes out of the person’s mouth as if each word stands alone. So you fully listen to everything they’re saying

-take a moment to feel everything you’re feeling in your body. From the top of your head to the soles of your feet.

-Feel what’s going inside of your mind, your heart, all the emotions coming and going. Recognize them for what they are

-Take a moment to appreciate everything that’s going on around you -observe it rather than judge it

Kiubon

6/8/20

8:46am

#40

Many times in my life my expectations disappointed me. That’s how it works anyways. When have your expectations ever been met? And when they’re met, you’re just like “meh”. I think that’s the whole point. Expectations are meant to be let down. Only when they’re unbelievably exceeded do you feel something. And you can’t have them exceeded each and every time. You’re gonna get let down because of Lacan’s theory on objet a and all of that ish. So in Man’s Search For Meaning he suggests replacing expectation for appreciation. Just appreciate that you can be in that situation, appreciate what’s around you, appreciate what you have, the opportunity to even compete or talk or do that thing or whatever. I’m going to go see two friends, and I have some expectations in my head. I’d prefer not to get disappointed. So let’s just be grateful. I appreciate them letting me go see them. I appreciate the means I have to get there. I appreciate the entertainment I have whiling driving up there. I appreciate the situations that lead me to meet them. I appreciate they still wanna be my friend.

Kiubon

6/7/20

10:02am

#39

What’s the biggest impact a stranger has made on you? This short film made by Wong Fu Productions has always resonated with me. I have no idea why. The music, the characters, the scenario, just scoops me up and carries me away.

I watched this when I was 12 years old. Holy shit. The hopeless romantic in me has been there forever! And now I’m 20. Gosh. That was eight years ago. And it still comes to my head? I want to make movies like this.

We meet strangers all the time. We’re also strangers to them and we can have profound impacts on people. Be kind. I remember a physician I had who told me to go hug my dad. He could tell we had an interesting relationship. We didn’t hug. But I still think about that experience.

So go impact a stranger’s life.

Kiubon

9:32am

6/6/20

#38

There’s that little voice in our heads that constantly tell us not to start our work. Stephen Pressfield calls it the Resistance. Where did this come into being? It hasn’t always existed. Our ancestors couldn’t take a day off when they wanted food or needed to survive. So have humans gotten increasingly lazier? That’s pretty sad. Now here I am, always faced with the Resistance before starting work. Here’s what I found that helps

-limit all distractions. Block websites, turn off internet, get your phone out of there

-step by step to start working. One step at a time to your desk, then sit down, then start

-set a very easy goal with lots of amount of time to do it

I’m still figuring all this out. Why does my innards scream at me to not do shit. The human mind is so ridiculous.

Kiubon

9:34am

6/5/20

#37

School next fall will be

• entirely social distanced
• can only eat at your school dining hall
• 30 people inside the dining hall at one time
• have to eat alone
• Saturday and Friday classes
• no freshman orientation
• if you break social distancing then you have to go home
• no sports teams
• can only see your roommate
• go home for the semester for thanksgiving break
• everybody has to be tested
• everybody has to wear a mask

Some people can label this as suffering. It definitely is privileged suffering. But if this is what school is going to implement for health purposes, then how can we still make it a beautiful semester? What will be the new norm? Eating outside six feet apart from a group of friends? Sneaking off to eat off campus with your friends? How will we touch our friends? It’s going to be interesting. And so exciting

Kiubon