#216

12.5.21

7:40p

You have three years to live, the doctor says. When you die, your loved ones will stand up at your funeral and reminisce about you. What do you want them to say?

What you did today or will do today, will that contribute to what they will say to you? You want them to say you’re hardworking, kind, selfless, funny, creative. But today you just sat on your ass all day and stuffed your face. Does that align?

You might die in three years. So live today and tomorrow and after day after that to live up to the person in that casket.

Kiubon

#215

11:58am

12.4.21

I almost didn’t blog today because it’s the weekend and I don’t have a set “routine” on the weekend. Who gives a shit. I’m here. And I’m writing. When have you ever said to yourself, “I wish I wrote less.” Look back at your writing in five years and tell me you wish you wrote more. Yes this is a public blog and people can read, but I’m writing for myself. Use yourself as motivation. There’s that same magic when you look at old journal entries. So Keep writing. Even if it’s shit cause you gotta write shit before you can write decent. I was inspired by reading Bing Liu’s blogs on Minding the Gap. What power there is in pen and paper and words. Keep writing. Every day.

Kiubon

#214

12.3.21

7:38a

Some people are so weird and it’s so hard to love them. It’s so hard to treat them the way you’d want to be treated. I am acknowledging this so I can do a better job at it.

Kiubon

#213

12.2.21

8am

“Can you believe 2021 is almost over?” said my co worker. Someone else replied, “It’s sure been a weird two years!” Indeed it has. Life will probably be seen in two acts. Precovid and postcovid. How interesting. This is life. Change. It’s guaranteed. Life will change. That’s the only thing worth dwelling on. Yes, fuck covid and all the shit it brings. You knew this would happen. You knew would life would change. Here’s to the end of 2021. If we’re fucked even more in 2022, stand up tall and take it.

Kiubon

#212

12.1.21

8:02am

“In life, you don’t get what you deserve, you get what you negotiate.” – Tim Ferriss.

Call your credit card companies, get those fees waived. Even try with checking accounts. Be confident. Speak with conviction. And you might save a couple of bucks. Yeah, it’s only a couple of bucks. But the prize is in the negotiation and winning.

Kiubon

#211

11.30.21

7:53am

I was journaling in front of my friend Jim. He’s in his late sixties and was looking at what I was doing. I asked him, “Do you journal?” he looks away with a half scoff and says no. People react this way with many different questions, “Do you meditate?”, “Have you called your mother?”, “Did you go to bed at a reasonable hour last night?” We react this way because maybe our lives could benefit from these behaviors. Even just a little. So why don’t we do something about it? Why continue to sit on our asses and mope? Do the work. Share your art. Get better. No more complacency. No more hating yourself when you look in the mirror. Go journal.

Kiubon

#210

11.29.21

10:16am

Two is one and one is none. It’s a hard balance with backups. Do I need two cars? What about two nail clippers? Or two of the same camera cord? If I get two of everything then I’ll be in a heap of crap I don’t need. Just think, if this thing broke, would I be totally out of service? Can opener? I can use a knife or borrow my neighbors or rummage through a nearby kitchen and find one. Your passport? Welp I’m stuck in this country now. Even though it’s hard to get a second one, you could have copies. What about your car? I could take public transpo, Uber, borrow a car, whatever. So two cars is not necessary. Two camera cords? If this one dies, then I have no way of powering my camera. That seems necessary.

So get backups!

Kiubon

Let’s get to 220 entries.

#209

11.28.21

8:34a

You should write and read everyday. Whether that be your journal, the newspaper, an article, just do it everyday. Learn. And keep learning.

Kiubon

#208

11.27.21

10:38am

The future will bring change and it’s your responsibility to learn about the change. With blockchain and NFT technology buzzing around now, do your research. Instead of sitting on the side line which could have a high opportunity cost. Just like literally everything else we do in life, compound interest and complacency are two big principles.

Your research can compound and don’t be complacent about staying in the past. Same applies with healthy exercising and healthy eating.

Kiubon

#207

11.25.21

2:49p

It’s thanksgiving today which means I cheated on my diet. I wasn’t planning on cheating today. Maybe tomorrow because that’s when the big meal is. So I caved and ate at least six slices of delicious apple and pumpkin pie. What do I do? Feel guilty? Feel ashamed? Go run it off? It’s always good to exercise so I’m definitely going to do that. But how is it productive to feel like worthless because I cheated on my diet? What comes from that? I’ll just call myself a shithead, my self esteem will plummet, I’ll want to feel better, so why not go for more pie? Or I’m strong enough to resist the pie, but I’m now in a shitty mood or I just feel shitty about myself.

It’s the holiday. I’m allowed to celebrate with my friends. I’m allowed to feel grateful for them and enjoy some delicious food. Give thanks then take a bite. Then when the holiday ends, get back on that diet. Enjoy the sugar and carbs while it lasts, with every single bite, with every single second. It’ll taste like shit if you bite into the pie with guilt in your mouth.

Happy thanksgiving!

Kiubon

#206

11.24.21

10:09am

Once you lack something, you’ll start to appreciate it. That’s it with food for me. How can people get hangry after not eating for four hours. Yet if you prepare them to fast for three days or even five days, they’ll 100% be able to do it? After living in the cold for so long, you’ll start to yearn for the sun. The grass is always greener as they say, so be grateful for what you have now.

Kiubon

#205

11.23.21

9:51am

I haven’t eaten anything in 3.5 days. I’m not feeling it. I don’t want to blog. Yet I will show up and write. Because even when you’re not feeling it, especially when you’re not feeling it, you should show up, build the habit. Inspiration does not come before action. Action first, then inspiration, then motivation. So if you don’t feel it, that’s a sign to go do it.

Kiubon

#204

11.22.21

9:29a

If you’re practicing and you fail, you’re doing the right thing. Whether you’re learning how to skateboard or learning how to draw, you will fail. You’re not going to kickflip on the first try and the Mona Lisa is far from your drawing ability. So fail and keep failing. You’ll realize you weren’t actually “failing”, but learning.

Kiubon

#203

11.19.21

7:53am

Pretend like you just got a call from your doctor. They diagnosed with you cancer and you’ve got three months to live. What will you do? Quit your job? Confess your love? Buy a plane ticket? Life it too short to be stuck in an office making money for a fat corporation that only fucks other individuals.

Some quote I heard from Naval Ravikant: “We all have two lives. The second one starts when we remember we only have one.”

But what if you need to make money? I don’t know. That’s where I’m at. Stuck in an office (even though I can easily leave, and I’m going to) to make money for my next adventure. How can we be more creative? How can we somehow monetize these adventures we want to go on?

Kiubon

#202

11.18.21

11:32am

Binging TV does nothing for you. Just watch one episode a day. So why do I continue to binge? It kills time, productivity, motivation, creativity, etc etc. Gross.

Don’t binge TV. Something as simple as go outside is better.

Yet, as I write this, I’m downloading the next season of the mediocre show I’m going to binge.

How the fuck do I implement my own advice?

Kiubon